GAH

Ok right now I’m so so scared because I don’t know what to expect upon getting back my results. 6 more hours and I’m getting my results. The figures that will determine my path in future and proabnly affect so so many things like how people will view me or whether I have made my family proud etc. 

I have been working hard for the past few months before the exams but I know many other people have worked even harder. I really don’t want to have too high expectations as they might only lead to too great disappointments. But still I am praying hard that I will achieve a single digit for L1R5. I will be super grateful and burst out in tears of joy. But right now knowing myself, who got 31 for PRELIMS, I don’t know whether it’s possible to improve by so much. 

I just want to tell myself that no matter what happens God has greater plans ahead for you and everything happens for a reason. Good or bad (hopefully good) just take it in stride and work harder from there 🙂 

GAHHHHH PLS BLESS ME WITH A SINGLE DIGIT L1r5 :(((( I hope I can enter meridian jc that’s my only ultimate wish. 

If I don’t do well I have decided that I will go sp and take business but if I can still go sr or tp I will. BUT THAT BEING SAID FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART I STILL REALLY REALLY HOPE AND PRAY THAT I CAN ENTER MJC. IT WILL MEAN SO MUCH AND I PROMISE I WILL WORK HARDER. 

I want to prove people wrong that I am capable of doing well and most importantly make my family proud. Ever since daddy left, they have pinned such high hopes on me and I have let them down again and again. I want to make them proud of me this time.

LETS DO THIS XS WHATS DONE IS DONE. #singledigitletsgo 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼😭😭😭

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10 Ways To Push Forward When You Feel Like Giving Up

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There are bound to be setbacks on the path to reaching our goals. Sometimes our circumstances seem so daunting that we feel like calling it quits. In actuality, you may be inches away from reaching your destination, and now is not the time to throw in the towel. Here are some strategies to help you push forward when you feel like giving up.

1. Focus on how far you’ve come

You’ve been working towards a goal for a while and perhaps you have hit a plateau or maybe even endured some set backs. The obstacles can become so frustrating that you figure it’s time to give up on your dream. Before you abandon your mission, take some time to think about how far you’ve come already. Look at how things were when you started and how they are now. Sure, you may have fallen flat a few…

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25 Struggles Only INFJs Will Understand

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1. Being able to predict with eerie accuracy how a situation is going to play out, but being too polite to tell people that they’re making a mistake… so just keeping quiet and having to watch exactly what you thought would happen, happen.

2. Having zero interest in casual dating in a world that’s obsessed with flings and one-night stands.

3. The consistent, nagging voice in the back of your mind telling you that you’re not living up to your full potential.

4. Having much never met another person like yourself, since INFJs are (a) Only 1% of the population and (b) Usually inside reading a book.

5. The constant struggle of wanting alone time but feeling the uncontrollable compulsion to go make your loved ones happy.

6. Fooling everyone into thinking you’re an extrovert while you’re in public and then confusing the heck out of them when you…

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15 Things People Who Love To Be Alone Are Secretly Guilty Of

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1. Waiting to answer texts when someone asks what you’re up to because you get that weird panicky feeling that they’re going to want to hang out immediately.

2. OR you straight up decline plans for no real reason other than you just don’t feel like being around people at the moment. It’s nothing personal. You just really were planning on being alone at the time your friend suggested doing something.

3. Putting more importance on reading a book than going out and feeling absolutely no remorse over your choice.

4. Or if it isn’t a book, it’s finishing a TV series. C’mon, sometimes you just HAVE to know how something’s going to end before you can proceed on with your life.

5. Asking someone if they want to do something later in the day or on a different day just because if you don’t spend more time by yourself…

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Read This If You’d Rather Be Alone

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When I lived in New York and worked in media, there was rarely an evening when I wasn’t at some party or social gathering, drink in hand, meticulously crafted outfit designed to solicit attention.

I was young – in my late teens and early twenties and I wanted to be a part of the group of cool kids I had felt excluded by in my earlier school years. It felt exciting and validating to be included in a world of beautiful people and velvet ropes. For three years I cared about little else than going out, meeting people, being seen. But this was not really me; it was as if I was playing a part I thought I was supposed to play. I had to drink in order to feign enjoyment in these settings. So few memories stand out from these years as blissful or enriching.

My natural…

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20 Ways Indecisive People Make Their Lives More Difficult Than They Should Be

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1. You can never give definitive advice to anyone. You can provide several different opinions, and an argument from every angle but you can never actually tell a close friend what they should do.

2. You cannot Tinder successfully because you’re too caught up on the implications of a right swipe.

3. You are hesitant to call yourself a “fan” of anything because it seems too committal. Like, you enjoyed a specific movie. Or you think you liked that band. Or that comedian. But, did you? They made that one borderline joke. Maybe you don’t want to identify as one of their fans.

4. There are many skills you are blessed with, but “closing” isn’t one of them. You have a hard time asking for exactly what you want because you’re too busy worrying that you’re bothering them, or that they don’t want the same things as you.

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To All The Little Girls Who Just Want To Be Skinny

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Dear Ashley, Aaliyah, Mary, Nicole, Daniela, Cassandra, Victoria, Sam, Elizabeth, Tai, Noelle, Michelle, Rachel, Calise, Natalie, and Simone—Dear All Little Girls Who Just Want To Be Skinny,

Baby, when you step on that scale, don’t cry. You’re beautiful.

It’s just a number, baby. It’s not a score or an omen or a riddle or a taunt. It’s just a number, baby. It’ll go up tomorrow, and the day after that, it’ll go down. It’s just a number, baby. So throw that scale away. Your muscle is heavy. Your brain heavier still. It’s just a number, baby. Please, don’t let that worthless little number tell you “don’t eat.” Don’t let that worthless little number tell you “and if you do, throw it up after.” Numbers can’t talk, baby. They can’t talk, so don’t listen. It’s just a number, baby. Don’t cry. You’re beautiful.

Baby, when mama tells you “don’t eat so…

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