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Depressedย 

I never exactly knew how feeling lost and worthless and basically depressed, all negative thoughts in one single night. 

That feeling of insecurity that is shadowed upon you when you walk through pretty people and a bunch of seemingly perfect and pretty people but there is you who is so insecure and not reaching the “pretty” benchmark. You are just normal, ok, just you. I hate this feeling and everytike I tell myself to ignore it, the feeling almost comes back immediately. 

Also, I blame myself for being stupid and naive, thinking I was capable of achieving more when the truth was I couldn’t. I pushed myself. But the only result was nothing but suffering, and more things to hate myself for. Not only am I affected, I am being an extra burden to my family, maybe the only people who actually care for me and love me for who I am, or I hope they do I suppose they do. Only can pray that things will get better from here especially my leg.

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Melancholy

Hi everyone it’s been so long since i blogged. The past four months of 2017 has been nothing but a rollercoaster of events, filled with ups and downs but i would say maybe more downs then ups? but nevertheless, we have all made it through the difficult phases the past few months and we can only become stronger than before am i right?

At the start of the year, specifically, 25th Jan i fell down in school and fractured my feet. What was thought initially as a sprain turned out to be a hairline fracture. It was one of the most painful and mentally, physically, emotionally draining experience i had and i know i should count myself lucky that the condition was not serious and i have it better than many other people but still, at that point in time, the only thing i could think of was “why me?” “why did i choose to go for pe that day when i knew my leg was already injured?” ๐Ÿ˜ฆ sometimes i questions the choices i make in life man. If only i didnt exert my leg i would be able to train with the rest, go for trainings, play for a division, get to experience what i have been looking forward to since j1. this sucks. after 2 months or so i am almost completely okay already and im really thankful. really glad to have my buddy and my family and friends who took the effort to care and show their concern during this period of time. There were many times where i felt lonely and frustrated too but i guess it became better because ย of the people who cared, especially my family really.

School hasnt been the best. It was getting back the past week but my fucking asshole chem tutor had to screw it up for me by embarrassing me in front of the whole class. I swear. It isnt even the first time anymore like sure i know it was my fault i did not study but that does not give you the rights to slash me with such harsh words especially in front of the whole class. Like what kind of fucking tutor are you when you didnt show a least bit of concern when i fractured my leg. I hate the whole world man really fucking done. The next time he does this i am seriously going to rebut back and not let him put me down like this. Fucking unfair. Stupid piece of shit man.

So because i cant play for matches, i became the umpire/ linesmen and am still part of the team. Really grateful for this fact so. Was really interesting and exciting watching them play and honestly, i feel like tennis people are one of the blessings in disguise in mj. They are fun and kind and easy going and everyone in here is literally so easy to talk to and i feel so much more comfortable being around them than my classmates. We lost against AC and DHS so far but i guess its the experience that counts? and they put up a good fight so wuhu.

Lastly, because my leg was injured, the only thing i could basically do is study. so i tried putting more effort into studying and improving my grades but to no avail lmao.

i got an e for gp despite getting highest in class for compre, u for chem and math, s for geog and d for econs. felt super dejected for math because i did study for it idk maybe it has something to do with the way i study that is making me not getting good grades. pretty satisfied with geog because except one person the whole class got u. and econs is like hm okay. expected higher because i studied but then again not everyone did well so. gotta buck up for my chem and math lah i know. shall prove peter wrong man and shove it in his face. DIE BITCH DIE. ZZZZZZZ.

so overall, results are bad but they werent the worse i expected? u got this xs keep pushing yourself you are doing fine ok.

Wimbly Lu Chocolates Cafe!

One of the most famous cafes in Singapore and here it issss! Was really excited to try out their waffles which is known for being affordable and absolutely drool worthy.
 
I ordered a Carbonara Pasta and the serving is much bigger than other cafes that I have been to so that’s a plus! And the creamy sauce is really good.

   

 

    
Next up, we also ordered a cake called Blackout Chocolate cake HAHAHA. As the name suggests, it was really chocolate overload. Three layers of chocolate with chocolate drizzle around it. Mmmm YUM. The cake was soft and fluffy but after while you can get sick of the chocolate taste? But other than that it was great.

  
Lastly we ordered the famous Wimbly Lu Waaaffles!!! MY FAV. hehe. Let the pictures do the work.

   
 
The waffles was the best thing ever. Crunchy on the outside and soft on the inside. 10/10 would recommend ๐Ÿ™‚

Overall, it was a great experience at this cafe. Do check it out if you are interested! They are located at 15-2 Jalan Riang which is walking distance away from Serangoon MRT.

Cheers 

Cheese Baked Penne Pastaย 

  
First post for my new food blog shall be dedicated to the drooling Cheese Baked Penne Pasta. It’s something my brother and I decided to whip up at home spontaneously at home since we were both free ๐Ÿ™‚

Ingredients:

  1. Penne pasta 
  2. Mozzarella Cheese 
  3. Broccoli 
  4. Sausage or ham or bacon 
  5. Mushrooms 
  6. Cherry tomatoes
  7. Tomato sauce for the base 

Feel free to diy and use your own ingredients for the fillings such as adding meatballs instead of sausage!

I baked it in the oven for approximately 20 minutes at 200 degrees. It was great watching those cheese meeeeelt!!!! 

Add more cheese on top of the pasta if you like it cheesier hoho.

Easy to make and tasty to eat. Love it ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Cheers 

Furnishing a new food blog

I have been thinking what can I write about that will stand out from the many other amazing reads on WordPress. Especially when my vocabulary and fiction writing skills has a limit to it.

And so I have decided to write on something I LOVE. and probably what most people do too! 

FOOD BLOG. 

Sorry for not updating the past few months when i was busy mugging my way through examinations.

Follow my blog for more write ups about food outings and food I cooked at home.

GAH

Ok right now I’m so so scared because I don’t know what to expect upon getting back my results. 6 more hours and I’m getting my results. The figures that will determine my path in future and proabnly affect so so many things like how people will view me or whether I have made my family proud etc. 

I have been working hard for the past few months before the exams but I know many other people have worked even harder. I really don’t want to have too high expectations as they might only lead to too great disappointments. But still I am praying hard that I will achieve a single digit for L1R5. I will be super grateful and burst out in tears of joy. But right now knowing myself, who got 31 for PRELIMS, I don’t know whether it’s possible to improve by so much. 

I just want to tell myself that no matter what happens God has greater plans ahead for you and everything happens for a reason. Good or bad (hopefully good) just take it in stride and work harder from there ๐Ÿ™‚ 

GAHHHHH PLS BLESS ME WITH A SINGLE DIGIT L1r5 :(((( I hope I can enter meridian jc that’s my only ultimate wish. 

If I don’t do well I have decided that I will go sp and take business but if I can still go sr or tp I will. BUT THAT BEING SAID FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART I STILL REALLY REALLY HOPE AND PRAY THAT I CAN ENTER MJC. IT WILL MEAN SO MUCH AND I PROMISE I WILL WORK HARDER. 

I want to prove people wrong that I am capable of doing well and most importantly make my family proud. Ever since daddy left, they have pinned such high hopes on me and I have let them down again and again. I want to make them proud of me this time.

LETS DO THIS XS WHATS DONE IS DONE. #singledigitletsgo ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ