So I’m here in the midst of having my A Levels, and feeling so done and lost and unmotivated and angry at life. The past few papers were probably the worse I ever did, idk why I just feel like I didn’t perform to the best of my ability and I don’t know what is stopping me, because honestly I felt like I did study and work hard the past month?? I went back to school, I did prelim papers, I stayed up at night, idk what went wrong. During the papers, I just couldn’t do it, I just couldn’t figure out the method, even if they were staring in my face. I hate this. And the worse thing is if it wasn’t even meant to be a hard paper. I fucking hate myself. The only reason why I think I’m so distracted could be I’m losing steam, since day 1, I started to not bother, despite working so hard the past month. Fuck me man honestly. I started watching YouTube, watching variety shows more than ever, and i get distracted. Now I can’t stop thinking about how I might end up with Ds and maybe not even Cs for chem and math. LOL, why do I never learn my lesson. Told myself I would aim high for paper 2, and realise I might just end up getting fked with a D. Idk man, I’m so sick of this already, I have econs tmr which is supposedly my best subject, but I can’t focus, I don’t want to. Sucks I don’t even know what I’m doing with life already.
pls xs pls, get your shit together already. I know you have screwd up math and chem, esp math even though u did so many fucking papers, and u may feel that’s unfair. but I’m sure bellcurve may be able to push you up hopefully? maybe to a C for both chem and math? idk but what’s done is done. chem practical may have been the worst ever, but you have two subjects left. econs and geog. You won’t want to screw econs trust me you will regret it. You have googled, even if u do get 2 Cs, an A for econs and geog could still bring you to SMU courses and some nus or ntu courses and that’s good enough. stop hating on yourself it’s not going to be good for you in any way. okay now start studying for Econs, ace it and geog, and hopefully if GP is fine w a B, you will be ok. 🙂🙂🙂